In my 38 years on this planet, I've never purposely missed a game. I missed one on my wedding day, and a handful here or there for family sickness or equally important event.

They've finally broken me. This game has no potential for happiness. Either we get the scraps the NFL toss us and pull out a win and make up for the game we should've won last week or we get embarrassed beyond belief. I have cancer and feel like crap during the week from chemo treatments, not gonna ruin my Sunday too.

I'm posting about it instead of just going away quietly because...

1) I'm curious, are you going to watch? If so are you excited about it?

2) Am I missing something or does this seem like a no upside situation?

Obviously, If we win, we're in the playoffs and I'll be back to watch that, but especially with the terrible Ref they've assigned to the game I'm too scared to watch. #Coward

I hope you get through your treatments myka. Prayers to you for health and recovery.

If you do miss the game, I hope we win it for you and earn a playoff berth.

And, yes, my choice of words are important: EARN. Regardless of just this past 10 days, this team has earned a playoff bid. That’s why I’m watching and cheering. We belong in the playoffs and this group has deserved the chance to get that monkey off of our backs.

Go Browns ... stay healthy

You do you myka! I'll be watching and rooting enough for both of us. I cussed the TV last week on more than one instance, but I still would not have wanted to miss it. I know it's highly unlikely, but I want a browns super bowl more than just about anything before I die. So I will suffer or delight every game from now until then or I run out of time, too invested not to.

I purposely skipped some games in the '95 season (for obvious reasons). But I didn't miss any before that and haven't since.

I think I've been a glutton for punishment.

Hopefully this Sunday afternoon we'll all feel a bit more positive.

Prayers for your health - the most important thing.

Praying you feel better my friend and that you kick cancer's ass

with that said... of course I'm excited!!! I've said it in other threads... don't care if we get the B team... win and we're in... at home... can't wait until Sunday!!

I'm jealous of your attitude! Maybe I'm just down in the dumps overall, but man last week's game really kicked me in the SOUL.

Thanks everyone above for the nice wishes.

I didn't know you are battling cancer My thoughts and prayers are with you. You were and will be missed in the game day chat.

As for the game..I will be cheering the Browns on. I wouldn't miss it for the world. I've been waiting to see playoff football since the 90's.

last week sucked... and maybe I'll be really let down... but I'm just thrilled we have a winning team and the chance to get into the playoffs..


and cancer sucks... praying you kick it's ass...

Thanks Pdawg.

hah, I love the gameday chat! I'll be back for the playoffs for sure if we make it!

Good luck with your treatments myka.

But take some solace. I know how you feel about the misery the Browns have been since 99.

I have gone through every loss just like you have. I have felt the punch in the gut for 30+ years.

We speak the same language.

So, I would encourage you to realize a few facts.

We have found our head coach and GM that we have been searching for years to get.

We have found our franchise QB. Yes, Baker had a very bad game Sunday but I assure you and everyone on this board Baker will be ready this Sunday.

With that said, even if we lose, our future is very BRIGHT!

WE ARE FINALLY GOING IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION FOR THE FIRST TIME IN 30 YEARS!

Come watch myka. We are all family. Let's get through all this together!

Win or lose we will take the North in 2021!

Praying for You Myka

I like how you said that ... we’ve ALL fought this battle together. We’ve all been in the same boat with this franchise.

It’s a good bond that we have. We deserve to have a playoff appearance (and a franchise that is on the rise)

WHEN we make the playoffs!!!!

Very well said, SB! And Myka...hang tough, bro.

First, thoughts and prayers to you. Fight the good fight, dawg. We are all in your corner and here for you.

Last week’s game depressed me. It was our first real must-win game and we peed down our leg. But, I am excited for this game. I want to see how we bounce back. Another shot at a must-win game. It is set up well for us, with us getting guys back and them resting some guys. If we lose then we do not deserve the playoffs. But, I am excited to watch this game. My sons want to see a Browns playoff game.

First....prayers and hope that your health issues are resolved with the best possible outcome.

Next....what is happening Sunday is what I've been waiting for for years and years. Playing for the playoffs at the end of the season. This is what it's all about. We are relevant. I wouldn't miss it for anything.

Amending my sig to honor your fight, myka. Kick ass and take its name.

For so many of our years together as Browns fans, we've already been talking about the draft since mid-November. Since 1999, we've only been able to seriously talk Browns and playoffs 3 times.

I'm with jfanent on this one. A relevant, meaningful game on the last weekend of regular season? Nothing could keep me away from being a part of this. Win or lose, I've been with this team since Jim Brown played in Muni, and I'm not about to sit this one out.

Beat Pittsburgh (in our house), and we punch our ticket to The Tournament.
Beat Pittsburgh, and we get another chance to punch them in the mouth (in their house) one week later.

As a lifelong Browns fan, this is as much as I dare ask for. Best believe I'll be there.

stay strong,
clem

Truly .. I may be a depressed mess at 4:15 Sunday, but I can’t miss this.

I believe that I will be watching the game that the Browns will win to gain entry into the payoffs for the first time in 17 years.

Someone else can carry the burden of “longest time without a playoff appearance”

Run, William, Run was the call of that day.

thanks for the nice words

Haha, maybe I'll join the gameday chat but not watch the game :-P I really just see no merit to it.

If we beat backups, we beat backups.

If we LOSE to backups we're the Cleveland Clowns again.



Oh man, Run, William, Run was the best moment of my Browns life, I just don't see getting that level of excited when Chubb scores against some backups.

Everyone else without being able to reply to everyone without spamming the thread... I'm really overwhelmed and touched how much support for me this thread turned into. I wasn't expecting that at all lol, you put a smile on this dawg's face. Woof woof

Be strong, man. A Myka win is more important than a Browns win.

A playoff berth is a playoff berth, every team gets a few bones thrown their way through the season.

Whether it's teams they play, injuries, ref calls, etc. Almost every game can be critiqued and called either way with just a play or 2 going the other way.

We won 10 games, no matter how they were won or who they were against, these are still NFL teams we played.

It's not like the NFC East where getting in is more a matter of which team will suck less.

So, get well, take care of yourself, and take pride in the fact this team is finally putting it together. No matter how you get there, playoffs is like a start of a new season. Step one if getting there, no matter how you do it.

I have not missed a game in well over 50 years, and I don't plan on changing that any time soon. Even the games I had to watch in the Hospital were recorded by my family so I could rewatch them again later. Yes I not only watch the game I also rewatch them all at least once.

As for the chemo been there done that twice, two six month rounds so I know how you feel. Praying that you beat the cancer and it never returns for you. If you ever want to talk about it with somebody who has been in your shoes just PM me anytime bro.

Hate to hear that news Myka ... I'd say do whatever keeps you feeling positive and avoid anything that saps your energy and emotions. Record the games and if we win - go watch them.

Best wishes and sincerely hope you beat this thing!

Amen to that. Stay strong, be even more diligent against this virus during chemo.

Also, if we beat Pittsburgh you won't be allowed to watch a rematch. Call it superstition, karma, whatever you want. If we win Sunday, and lose in a rematch -- that you're watching -- there will be a bunch of us over there to hand you your first ass-whoopin' of 2021.

I believe that everything has a way of evening itself out. We got jammed by Covid last week with a heavily depleted roster. There is no way that was a fair gauge of two teams playing in a level game. Things were heavily favored for the Jets.

This week, the same goes in the other direction. With Pittsburgh sitting many of its starters things are heavily weighed in our favor depending on who returns from Covid protocol.

I don't know. I look at it this way, we have won 10 out of 15 games. That gives me 66.6% odds I'll be happy after watching the game Sunday. Compared to seasons passed I'm more than willing to take those odds and root for my team by watching every play.

I live very close to Nashville. As such I pay for the NFL Sunday Ticket every season to insure I can watch every Browns game. Many have been the seasons that the return on that investment has been very poor.

It has been nice to see a season that I can actually cling to as a building block for the future. I'll take it.

On a more important note. You have something going on in your life much more important than football. Take the best care of yourself possible. In context, football means nothing.

From my family to yours, prayers and best wishes are sent for a full and speedy recovery.

It is all about perspective.

You have your fight to win. And win you will.

Embrace 10-5. A winning season has been a long time coming.

This is a playoff game.

No matter who plays or does not. All that goes by the wayside. Win and advance.

This is a good team. Last week was a anomaly. Hard to win a game against any team losing 8 players. Four of which was a whole position group. Toss that game away.

Yes, the Steelers will rest players and they are right to do that.

The Browns mission is win the game. When Sunday ends all media talk will be about the playoffs.

The regular season will mean nothing.

I expect to win and do not fear losing. I expect to enjoy the game.

If we were to get beat. Then turn off all media. Don't pay any attention unless you just want to watch football.

Once this season does end. I feel very good about the direction we are headed.

So for now all this is delicious gravy. I did not expect to be here. I was hoping to win nine and to celebrate a winning season.

Mika. I’m sorry to hear about your cancer. My wife was diagnosed in August for the 2nd time with it and had a major surgery and chemo. She’s doing ok now but she has to get her strength back and has another issue to deal with. I hope you get well and will keep you in my prayers. Stay strong my friend and keep fighting. I know that’s not easy.

Man,2020 can't end quick enough. Sorry to hear about your wife. Prayers for a full recovery.

Thanks my friend. She even had trouble with the chemo. Bleeding so they had to stop it. I really feel bad for anyone that has to go through this. This year has been the worst. People have their normal problems and then the covid-19 on top of it. Miserable!!

So much pain and suffering across the world.

Cancer has probably touched every family in some way.

Covid has killed so many and left many suffering.

It is up to all of us to support each other.

Hard times breed hard people.

Prayers and support for you. I hope all goes as well as possible. Be strong.

j/c

This season reads like a Hollywood script. The hapless Browns begin from less than nothing, with a rookie head coach, a coaching staff who began the season without even being able to shake hands, 2/3 of a team, and the challenge of doing so remotely, with no traditional off-season.

And here are the Cleveland Browns, playing the last game of the regular season with a chance to make The Dance. These Cleveland Browns must beat the Pittsburg Steelers to become legitimate NFL elites.

Beat the Steelers. Exorcise The Demon. Earn your right to play on.

I don't know about the rest of you, but this scenario is exactly why I watch professional football. As a lifelong Browns fan, it doesn't get any better than this.

Hollywood script.
Ending: still to be determined.

What is your team made of?

This is so freakking cool.
I love it. I really do.

Or would you rather see us at 4-12?

Only in April....on Draft day 1.

If the 4-12 question is directed at me, no way (scratching my head). I also don't want us looking at a "perfect" winless finish either, just for the record.

Waiting for The Win, like the Cavs delivered, or Major League, or even The Replacements!

Just waiting with a perfect dread and excitement. Watching with my club and friends, we have had cheering for the scarce first down as a highlight reel event.

This is better.

Go, Browns!

Agree.

The only drag is covid. It taints this season.

Right now missing key players on the covid list.

And then there is the fans at the game.

Damn. It has taken forever to have a winning season. Now here we are on the cusp of a playoff game facing the Steelers at home. And 12k will be there. Then if we make it. Empty stands.

I am thrilled to be playing. I only wish the circumstances were different.

If you are going through Chemo 38 years old then you have to do whatever lifts you up and helps you get healthy.
Mental strength is a great part of your battle now.
Sunday is just a game and only you can decide if watching will help or hinder you.
I'm 68 and have been a fan for 60 of them.
I've missed countless games and am no worse for it.
BEST of Luck w/ your fight.
We hope to see you here for many many more games!

Good thoughts and prayers, Myka. I know you're hanging tough. And you have to do whatever puts you in the best frame of mind. Your number one priority is you, fighting the cancer, and getting better. So if that entails not watching, that's the deal then.

I certainly understand the frustration. It feels like we should've taken the season walking away. But that rarely happens with a "new" team. Of course, I hope we win this week, but I don't have faith we will. Between covid and our ability to Browns things up, I won't be surprised if we come away with a loss.

Having said that, it has been one hell of a year. The wins. The plays. The runs. Baker. Stefanski. Juice. Chubb. Hunt. Garret. Ward. All had game-changing, team defining moments and it has been a blast to watch. We can take away the fact that we have so many pieces in place, so much high-caliber talent on the team, a really, really good coach who game-plans, makes in-game adjustments, and coaches and motivates his players, and a front office who is hitting it out of the park with draft picks and acquisitions. And finally, we have a franchise QB who is learning and growing right in front of our eyes. Complain about his inability to scan the field? Blink and he's making all his reads. Baker can't throw with touch? The next week he's feathering them in. He's throwing too many INTs? Watch him go weeks without throwing a single one. Sure, he has his flaws, but lack of guts, grit, determination, a good arm, accuracy, and a desire to win for the Browns are definitely not on that list.

So I hope the Browns haven't broken you beyond you beyond repair. If now is not the time for you to participate in the ascension, that is their loss, but I hope you'll keep an eye out and rejoin wherever the time is right. In the mean time, I wish you strength, healthy thoughts, lots of love from those who care for you, and all the best in the coming year. Go Browns!

Definitely not beyond repair. Browns fan for life! Can't really do it any other way, even when I see my guys I was banging the table for (Patrick Mahomes, TJ Watt, DK Metcalf to name a few) tearing it up for other teams winning super bowls year in and year out.

The Browns have been dumb and had terrible luck, hoping one day it changes.

Just this game isn't a real game to me. So many factors to into it.

I think the #1 thing is I'm just sick of the NFL ripping us off. I don't know why it's always us, I know everyone says all teams deal with it, but they really just don't at our level.

The NFL postponed THREE TIMES so Lamar Jackson didn't have to miss a game, then they let him play against us while still having Covid symptoms (diarrhea on national TV), and now lookee lookee 2 weeks incubation time later and our team has an outbreak.

The Ravens suck at covid and now we might miss the playoffs cuz of it. I just can't take it any more.

Add to that the fact that we have another round of backups so it's gonna be a close game between our remaining starters and the Steelers BACKUPS. There's just no good outcome to this game. You either win like you should've vs BACKUPs, or you lose and we are once again the laughing stock of the NFL, at 10-6! 10-6 is supposed to be good!

Last time we were 10-6 we also missed the playoffs. If we lose this game it will just confirm the Browns are cursed to me and my life is cursed for rooting for them.

This will basically be a scrimmage game thanks to the NFL's incompetence (and saying it's incompetence is me being nice, since it seems more like it's on purpose. Did you watch the Colts vs Steelers game? Was wondering how the Steelers could make such a big comeback against a top defense, so went back and watched, and the terrible Refs calls gave them 14 points, it's so insane. I dunno what the Rooney's have done to convince the other 31 owners to keep favoring them but I'm sick of it)

I'll skip this one and watch the REAL game next week if we make it.

Sorry I got a little ranty, thanks everyone for the kind words above.

Best of luck with your treatments Myka & prayers your way. We are all pulling for you.

Feel the love in the room. Lots of support and more prayers sent your way. Strength, friend.

Myka,

Get better my friend. We as Browns fans and Browns friends, we need you around for these better days. Prayers are with you my man.

Myka-thoughts and prayers are with you and you will beat this just like the Browns will beat the Steelers tomorrow and punch the ticket to the playoffs finally!

I have had a very challenging year myself starting on July 10th when I was rushed to the hospital and the Dr's told my wife I was 50/50 to live and I needed emergency surgery as my Colon ruptured and ended up having to spend 3 weeks at the Clinic with 2 of those weeks in ICU.

After another surgery in October due to complications I was in the hospital again and a nurse came in and held my hand as she could tell I was down and she told me that she had been a nurse for 35 years and that most important thing for me to have to get thru everything is a positive attitude and to just keep fighting.

I have one final major surgery scheduled on January 22nd (my 50th birthday go figure) and hopefully I will be finally thru this.

I keep telling myself I will be in the hospital watching our Browns on January 24th watching them in the AFC championship game!

Stay positive my friend as I know it can be tough but it really does help!

Go Browns!

Prayers and best wishes to you as well Millerman.

Prayers for you too Millerman.

Hang in there Millerman, do your best to celebrate 50 as the new 40!

Wishing the best for you Miller!

Do not weaken, Millerman! Fingers are crossed and prayers are sent for you to be on the far side of this situation. Count your blessings for every step you have made so far.

Pulling for you. Be strong!

Wishing you a speedy recovery Millerman! Woof woof!

UGH I COULDN'T DO IT, I'M WATCHING THE GAME. I HATE MYSELF

GO BROWNS!

Good. Glad you're here.

Yay!!

Now come join us in the chat too...

That's how I expected things to turn out when all was said and done. And see, we won!