And yet things have changed cause here we are at 6-6 and we got fans stating how great they are and they are ready to give up. I've learned a little bit about giving up.

1. 1999 Survived widow maker heart attack in my sleep (100% blockage of the Aorta) at 43 years old and had to give up going for the $$$ my last game was 2004 as Paul Zuk treated me and the family to tickets to the game it btw was our only win on opening day but I never gave up on life even though it should have passed away.

2. 2007 had my 2nd heart attack again in my sleep. but I fought hard.

3. 2016 had 7 surge3ries on my legs - 5 by passes and went to wound care specialist and instead of wound care they cam up to me and told me that I needed to amputate my leg. When I refused they said I was in denial. Had my vascular surgeon to an extensive surgery and he woke me telling me he found the problem area and we were going to put a synthetic vein for a bye pass. Was told I would be on blood thinners for the rest of my life cause one more blockage and they have to amputate.

4. Since 2016 been on Coumadin and on Percocet my wound never healed until I went to a special service with the HEALING ICON St Anna (my mother's name and service was scheduled on my mother's birthday so I went. Within 2 weeks my wound healed! Prayer and hope kept me going strong.

5. 2018 Cancer hit I was lucky to find it as the pain meds had made me constipated and all of a sudden I had bleeding where the sun don't shine - It was a tumor. Because of my hear taking the beating over the years they didn't want to keep me under anestesia with surgery as my blood pressure would drop to 40's and they had problems waking me up. So they decided to blast me with radiation along with Chemo. I never gave up hope and my cancer has gone in full remission.

6. April this year my INR went over 11 and I was puking up gallons of blood so my hemogoblin dropped to where I need Oxygen 24/7 cause my blood is anemic to a dangerous point. But I still have survived

So here I am oxygen in my nose - having to rely on a wheel chair outside, No driving yet, no walking - My wife crying to me asking me to stay alive so I do not give up. Doctors are amazed but I have hope dwindling cause what good is my life if I cannot breathe, cannot walk - playing golf is a dream now. My Bucks who were the worst team for years in NBA turned it around like a miracle.

My Browns have turned it around where 6-6 with games left to play is now where some are asking to give up hope....GIVE UP HOPE!?!? as I sit here in pain refusing to give up hope. Not being able to coach (just got asked) but I can't walk My players text me telling me they love me and give me hope. I will never give up on my Browns by this time in previous years we were talking about the draft. We are 1 RT from a SB team and our D is coming together as finally our DBs have gotten healthy. Ravens are one of the best defensive teams out there. So their QB continues to chuck the ball up for grabs and all they need is that one time catch of a hail mary and that makes it tough for us to win but we are in the game at their field where I don't think we ever beat them at their field. Well lets beat them at home and lets have the crowd go crazy not for them to feel betrayed and won't yell with all their might like they do at champion team with champion fans. DON'T GIVE UP!!! Act like Champions and don't give up hope be part of the GOOD not part of the bad and wait for us to turn it around without any fans!!! This our time to win at home!!!! Let's get this